Wednesday, March 13, 2019

FUMBLES AND BUMBLES AND LOVE



I have had a fumbly, bumbly Morning. I woke up in kind of a fog. I went to the grocery store, the prescriptions I was to pick up in the pharmacy section were not in. I wanted whole dates, all they had were chopped dates. When I went to check out I realized I forgot my bags in the car. My amusing suggestion that the clerk run out and get them fell on deaf ears. I felt foolish. I pulled my debit card out of the reader too fast and had to reinsert, people waiting, feeling more foolish, more jokes falling on deaf ears.

I got home, fried up a leftover baked potato with three eggs, while carrying food over to chair, the fork hopped off the plate landing on the floor with a one or two pieces of potato. Sat down had a few bites and again my fork decided to part ways with me, this time it got quite fuzzy.

It was a delicious breakfast when I remembered I was eating. On my way into my study I was carrying a full cup of coffee, I had a newspaper in my other hand, so I tried to flip on the light switch with the coffee cup hand which resulted in big splotches of coffee on the carpet. Good thing it is a beige carpet. Well perhaps I won't have another Morning like this for a while.

Then on a genuinely sad note, I got a message from my daughter saying a good friend of ours had colon cancer. I sent out an e-mail message to another good friend to find out what was up and I haven't got an answer yet. I was able to search the families Facebook pages and discovered he is in Veteran's Hospital, he had an operation and apparently is resting comfortably. I assume this is good news.

I have known this gentleman for about forty years and I hold him in very high esteem. I didn't see him very often but every time I did it was a great pleasure. He is one of these people that brings fresh air into the conversation. He always seems well grounded and bursting with good wishes for his fellow man. I don't like to be reminded of our mortality this way.

Yesterday was my brother Garth's birthday. He died  three years ago. He was another person who I expected to always be in my life. Garth was 14 months younger than me, my friend is six months younger. I put a happy birthday message on Facebook for Garth and I mentioned that it was no weather for a picnic. This was an inside joke.

It probably was fifty years ago, we as good Minnesotans were sitting around complaining about the weather. It was March. Garth said, "It is usually nice enough weather on my birthday to have a picnic." Well it may have been every tenth or fifteenth March 12th. He was so sure and adamant about it at the time, I had to remind him of it on his birthday every year since. About ten years went by with my annual teasing, and lo and behold, on one March twelfth it was beautiful. Garth and Arlene put on a picnic at Columbia Park and invited the family. It was great. A perfect picnic, a perfect day. I didn't stop commenting on the weather on subsequent birthdays, though.

Yes! Some events remind us of our mortality but they also bear witness to the preciousness of life. Oh and life is grand! What an amazing world we live in. We can change so much of what we see, just by changing how we see. When I am caught up in my fumbly bumbly thoughts I see one world, when I take a deep breath and look again, I can see a world shining with love and good will for all.

We continuously create this illusion in front of us, if we love it it will conform to our love. It will reflect love back to us.

Love and Peace, Gregg

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