WAITING

We got up at 5:0 clock this Morning. We left at 6:0 clock to go to Mora for my PET Scan appointment. The last time I got the results within the hour, however my doctor wasn't in and I may not get the results today.

I am at peace about it and am no longer apprehensive about the outcome. It has been a good lesson. I learned a lot. It was humbling. I thought I evolved further rather than to be so affected by fear thoughts. I don't even know if it was fear thoughts. I wasn't aware of being terribly afraid. I know I dreaded going through further therapy, especially if the prognosis was iffy.

I will have more to say about what I learned. I need to understand It better myself. It has much to do with the concept of surrendering and having the faith that we truly are One and consisting of love. Fear comes with the belief in separation. Intellectually I am aware of our Oneness but at a feeling level, where it counts, I have a ways to go. During meditation I have experienced, or at least glimpsed, Oneness at a feeling level. I have more work to do. I don't like to use the word 'work' as it is surrendering to the truth of my [our] being.

My daughter, Naomi, just arrived for a visit so I will cut this blog short. I will let everyone know the results of the scan when I find out.

Love and Peace, Gregg