WORKING ON SELF

I just awoke from a nap and I am still groggy. I had a doctor's appointment at the local clinic. I am transferring from Mora to here. It is too far to drive to Mora, especially in the Winter. In the past I rarely visited a doctor and traveling fifty miles or so would be no big deal, but since my affliction I have an appointment almost every week. I expect this to end soon. If my PET scan is clear I should be able to finish with these follow-up visits.

I haven't heard from my oncologist yet. His nurse said he always calls with the results as he knows folks are eager to hear. We are still waiting.

I have really needed to work on myself to keep negative thoughts from evading my mind. I could directly experience how thoughts create what we see in front of us. Negative thoughts quickly created a dark mood if I entertained them for any length of time. I could also experience the opposite. I could jolly myself out of a negative space by insisting on having only positive thoughts. I became a fan of that old axiom 'fake it until you make it'. If we act out feeling good we actually begin to feel good.

As I mentioned in my last blog. I am keeping myself out of the mental gutters. I am less apprehensive. I am sure the worse thing that could happen is they would recommend further treatment. Let us hope not as it has taken me two months to begin substantial recovery from the first batch of treatments. In any case I will let you folks know as soon as I hear anything.

You haven't heard me rant and rave about the outside world lately. Partly that is due to the focus on my own well being, but it also has to do with the meaninglessness of the games that are being played on the world stage. It is not worthy of comment. All the horror of separation is pictured on the electronic picture tubes that caste their pale blue shadow in our living rooms.

It is not the real world. It is an illusion within the larger illusion and it is utterly false. The peoples of the Earth want peace. They just want to live their lives. They want to love their spouses, eat their meals and kiss their children good night. They have no interest in being manipulated into hating people they have never met.

Even those who have never heard of the concept of Oneness are feeling it. They intuit it. They understand the destructiveness of divisiveness. They will no longer allow forces to separate them from there neighbors. They will no longer accept the demonization of those they have never met. The concept of Oneness is too powerful to resist.

There is a great awakening happening in the world. We can help. We can get with it and shine our light on everyone. It is easy, just begin by wishing everybody well and then let your heart be your guide. We really do love everybody.

Let us not permit the events of life dim our light. The world needs our light! Our spouses need our light! Our children need our light! Our families need our light! Our friends need our light! Everybody needs our light!

Love and Peace, Gregg