It is not really Summer temperatures yet. It hasn't reached the seventies, but after the cold of last week it feels hot. There was a little skim of ice, on the outside chicken water, this Morning at about 8:30. The forecast called for the temperature to stay above freezing. A couple days ago, it got down to 24F and we lost some of our tomato plants in the greenhouse. We still have enough to plant, which won't be for another month.
Spring has been cycling in and out, which is pretty usual for this part of the country. It did get over seventy, a week or so, ago and then the weather took another nosedive. We never know for sure when Spring/Summer will settle in.
It is glorious today and it was glorious yesterday. I spent most of the afternoon sitting on the deck looking over my world. This Morning when I looked in the mirror I was surprised how ruddy my complexion was.
I am getting a late start with this blog because I had some other correspondence to attend to. Now, I am sitting here in a quite familiar situation, I don't have the foggiest idea of what to write about.
Lately, I have been impressed with the folly of trying to predict what life will bring me. Life comes to us, and seems to have a mind of its own, we can only react, and hopefully with love.
Reactions; they can be a problem for me. When we are confronted with some anger, from someone else, or any other kind of negativity, we react, first, from some pre-programmed place. If we are not able to substitute, a new healthy response, before letting go with our programmed response, it is like throwing kerosene on a fire. We can make a small problem huge and alienate folks instead of helping.
This happened to me recently. Instead of being helpful, I intervened in a fight, in a destructive manner, by unleashing anger that was based on old programming. Of course, I just made matters much worse. In my case, my angry response was based on helplessness. It did not need to be. There was no need for me to have an answer. If I kept my mouth shut everybody would have been better off.
One of my main struggles with growing up, is learning not to react. A feeling wells up in me and I respond, without being aware, from where it comes. There are many reasons we succumb to our reactions. Helplessness, hurt feelings, perception of attack etc.; let's face it these are all ego traits.
There is a tendency to justify our reactions. After all, we don't want to admit we were letting our ego in the driver's seat; especially when we come off as a real ass.
However, the solution is, to not justify our reactions. We can look at our reaction. We may be able to see the source and understand how we were programmed. Often it is beyond our comprehension. As we look at our reactions honestly and forgive ourselves, without castigation, we dilute the program and lessen the chance it will happen again.
Eventually, our egos will not run the show. Many of us, have reached a state, where we rarely react to verbal threat. We have developed a place in our mind where we can choose whether or not to react. It may be only a millisecond; it it gives us a chance to avoid negative reactions. I am learning to do this more and more.
We have a great deal of help, love surrounds, our intent to love is very powerful. We will see the end of ego dominance, individually and collectively, soon.
Love and Peace, Gregg
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