THE ILLUSION

Jamie came home from the hospital Saturday. Her stomach problems have cleared up. What was causing them? It is largely speculative. The low potassium was probably caused by her inability to eat for two weeks. She was unable to eat for two weeks because of severe nausea. Low potassium causes nausea so we have a circular argument. Nothing showed up on the stomach probe and Jamie hasn't got any feedback about the biopsies. If there was something significant they would have called her by now. Well whatever, the hospital stay seemed to have broken the cycle. That is good. She appears to be on the mend.

I had a follow-up PET scan this Morning. If it is clear I won't have to see the oncologist for six months. I anticipate it will be clear but that won't keep me from being on pins and needles until I hear.

I have been getting better and better at getting out of the turmoil of this illusion. What I call the illusion is this world we create individually and collectively, often heavily contaminated by our egos. It can be paradise or it can be hell.

I have been trying to understand 'Oneness'. I accept it intellectually and I am just beginning to understand it experientially. In a sense we have never left our Creator. We project part of our being into bodies to experience separateness. I don't know why we would need to do this and I have not been satisfied with the explanations I have heard. I can put off the understanding of the why while I am still in this body.

As I see it we are one with each other and one with our Creator/Source. Being one we have all the attributes of source and free will to create what we want to experience. The Garden of Eden may symbolize a time when we were in separate bodies but still knew our real Source and therefore could create only out of love. The Fall symbolizes the acceptance of the ego as our guidance. The acknowledgement of fear entered the picture. As long as we knew our connection with Source fear was impossible.

Following our egos lead us to extreme separation and an inability to imagine not being separated.

We can reverse this. Imagine Source never left us and we never left source. Imagine we are acting out this illusion while still underneath God's blanket of love, a giant bubble of Golden Unconditional Love in which we act out our individual dramas. We have free will and we can't know our ONENESS or the existence of Source as long as we are convinced we are separate.

The dramas we create out of fear and our belief in separateness do not really exist. They are only what we imagine. Only Love exist.

I have been testing this. When I finds myself over-stressed with negative thoughts, I can pause and imagine myself in a bubble of unconditional love, from my position inside the bubble of love I can see the illusion but not be caught up in it. I can go from being very stressed to very peaceful in seconds. How long can I maintain that beautiful place........ that is what I am working on.

I have been experimenting with bringing the whole world in my bubble, for indeed the whole world does share the same bubble I am learning to retreat to, we are all here together, only our belief in separation dictates otherwise.

That's right! Our Creator, Source, Allah, Great Spirit, Mother/Father God, it does not matter what you call our Ultimate Creator, her/his Being surrounds us. We are an integral part of this Being of Unconditional Love.

Yes we have free will. We can create the world we want. Unfortunately we do. Let us want a World created by Love.

I hope you are having a good Monday.

Love and Peace, Gregg