SEEKING EQUANIMITY

 

I am late this Morning. My mind has been preoccupied with concerns, I had no intent to write about. Jamie has had a health concern for the last few years, she is a diligent researcher and medically sophisticated, and she tried every remedy she came across, without any lasting improvement. It was discovered that she had all the symptoms of Lyme’s Disease but without the joint pain. In consultation, she learned one can have the disease and not have joint involvement. She went on a course of anti-biotic's. We were very hopeful. After four or five days of torture, she had to quit. She is apparently allergic to the anti-biotic. It was vey disappointing; but there is light at the end of the tunnel, she has an appointment with a practitioner who specializes in Lyme's disease and can make a definitive diagnoses. They, also, have a non-antibiotic treatment.

The other thing that has been bugging me; I mailed three checks on November 9. They did not reach their destinations. Two of them are for moderate amounts, but one is over $1100.00. We don't have, the kind of income, to take the unexpected loss. Oh ya, we would live through it but it would really grate. I talked to the post-mistress and she advised waiting for thirty days, before I got my underpants in a bunch. Thirty days is a long time. I will talk to the bank and consider stopping payment.

Oh, and another thing, our phone went dead during the last snow storm. The repairman came out on Thanksgiving. He left before I had a chance to check things out; we have four phones, only one seems to be connected. Did you ever try to get a message through to the robot that answers the phone at Century Link? After a half hour of answering questions that did not quite relate, I was given a real human. However, she must have been ensconced in another country, because she spoke very labored English. Just when we were getting to the point, where I could explain my very simple problem, we got disconnected. It must have been on their end, I thought she would call me back. Now I am going to have to talk to that computer again ahhhhhhhhhhhh.

The seconds two situations are relatively minor and I wouldn't give them much thought. The first magnifies the others. However, I know, we learn from every situation on planet Earth, and someday these things will be just a memory, or a good story, to tell over a libation. I talk much about the need for us to seek and maintain our peacefulness. It is, only out of a peaceful center, that we can take the actions that change the world. We cannot radiate love and peace when our minds are tied up.

I was just going to type, “ I know I will find that peaceful place” when calmness took over my mind. I have been seeking some tranquility all Morning and suddenly it is here; equanimity returned. Wow, I did not want to write about these personal struggles and ….......................... well I am not sure; was I suppose to for some reason?

In any case, thanks for listening. I so want, to have equanimity, all the time. It will be great, when our endless choice, between love and fear, is between, love and more love. It will happen. We are awakening!

I have some farm chores that will probably occupy me full time until next Friday. Don't count on a blog until then. If something Earth shaking occurs, I may try to get in a line or two.

Happy Friday!

Love and Peace, Gregg

P.S. I don't know how I caused the change in type. Oh well, life is interesting,