HEY! HAPPINESS IS POSSIBLE!

It is kind of icky out. Dreary, cloudiness at 37.9 F; not too pleasant. It reflects my mood these last few days. I know I don't have to settle for it and I can snap myself out of it; but the doldrums beckon. Why do we sometimes seem to enjoy our misery? I think we must. I have seen it, in myself, as well as others. Are we punishing ourselves? Or is it a way of processing? I am just talking about occasional indulgences of darkness. I guess we all do it. It is kind of silly when, like me, we can get out of it, practically, with the drop of a hat.

I am still in the process of dealing with my brother's death. That may have something to do with my vulnerability. On Saturday, we celebrated his departure. It was a great party. There were many friends and relatives in attendance. I talked to people I haven't seen in twenty years. It was easily the best memorial I ever attended.

At eighty one years old, it is obvious that I have experienced much death. I have had many friends and relatives die in all kinds of ways; accidents, disease, suddenly, lingeringly; perhaps this one is more significant because it reminds me of my own inevitable death. However, I am not aware of any regret that I am going to die. I could regret dieing, before there is a greater dawning of a loving world.

I caution folks not to look at the television news. Lately, I have been doing it. Do I think I am immune to it? I am not. What a horribly depressing thing that is. It is one horror story after another. And the political campaign; it is like being in some some bizarro world. It is amusing, but it leaves dregs of bad feelings.

Well, if I want to see the dawning of a new age, I better start participating in bringing it about, rather than pissing and moaning, about the world as it is. The world is how we see it, anyway, perception is everything. It is time I perceived the world, I want to live in, that is the way I will help bring it about.

Okay, I will do it. I will look for love everywhere. I will tune myself, to respond, in the most loving way, to my fellow beings on this planet. I will look for the loving being at the heart of all of us. I will not judge anybody. I will accept that everything, that confronts me, is for my learning and nothing can overwhelm me.

I am HAPPY! I see PARADISE!

Love and Peace, Gregg