I had a strange thing happen, that hasn't happened for quite awhile, I lost my blog. Every once in awhile, I lose what I am writing, because I accidentally strike the wrong key; but I have learned ways of finding it. I tried everything, I knew; nothing. It cut me off in the middle of word, everything previous was lost. Since I believe there are no accidents; I have to ask myself, why? Is there something I shouldn't have written? Is my higher self teaching me patients? Was the help, I enlisted from another, to help search for the lost document, somehow important in the relationship? Will I ever know? I don't like writing things over again, but I can't see why not.
We had our first frost of the season! It was 35F when I got up, but it must have reached the forecast low of 29, because the pasture was white. We didn't try to save anything in the garden. We had another busy day with medical concerns. Jamie has had overlapping medical conditions.
A recap: several months ago, Jamie developed an array of symptoms, that did not knit well together, into a clear diagnosis. She would have dark moods upon arising, but she didn't seem to be depressed. She would have episodes of nausea that may or not be caused by vitamin supplements. She would have periods of dizziness. She consulted physicians both MD and alternative. She did her own exhaustive research. She discovered sleep apnea could explain her symptoms. She found a device that would help relieve snoring. {she was a snorer} It worked! Her symptoms disappeared. She was about to launch into the enjoyment of good health, when she seemed to pull a muscle in her back. The pain was in her back at first and that was treated by a Chiropractor. He said the pain would continue in her arm for awhile. It did. When it didn't get better, he recommended an x-ray. [see last blog] With a medication to reduce inflammation, Jamie got remarkably better. So much so, that Monday, she was elated. It appeared she was on the mend. Then yesterday, upon arising, she moved her arm, a certain way, and the pain came back, with an intensity, greater than ever before. We went to the emergency room. We spent most of the day. They tried a couple pain medications and gave her an x-ray and then an MRI. She has bulging on one side of a disc in her neck. This is what we suspected, but it was good to have it confirmed. There is a pathway to recovery.
When we go through these life episodes either directly [Jamie] or indirectly [Myself] we know we are learning something. What is life trying to teach us? Sometimes we see it right away, other times, much later. I know it strained, my usual aquarian aloofness, and helped me to understand compassion more deeply. I, also, have been learning that one can go through painful episodes and not lose your basic optimism about life. We can be deeply compassionate, without taking on the others pain, or losing our own sense of well being. Of course, this is what every nurse and other health professional knows. Still, when it happens to you, or one close to you; it is different. I know as a psychotherapist I witnessed much pain and helped folks through it. I could be in it, but not of it. If it is in your own family though.......... it is another kettle of fish.
This is a learning planet. We are all learning constantly. Sometimes, I think, it is a cosmic kindergarten. Why else would it take us so long to learn, that the solutions to our problems was, just to love one another? It is incredible, we know that if we treated everyone with dignity and respect, most of our problems would disappear. How long will it take us to learn that violence can only create more violence? Punishment creates only more crime? Negativity, of any variety, only creates more negativity. These are kindergarten and first grade levels. We know we are more evolved than that. How does it happen that we permit ourselves to be seduced into madness? We know better. We have known war is insane forever. Why have we allowed it. We are not in kindergarten any more. We know that hitting the kid next to us, won't bring peace.
I think most of us know better; we have just felt helpless. We have not seen the problem clearly. We did not see with clarity, that there was a group of folks who profited from division and fear. We did not realize that there were people that would do anything for power and money. We did not realize these people, were past masters, at using fear and ego to manipulate others [whole populations]. We didn't know we had the power to change it.
It wasn't, until we realized, that the world we experience, is a creation of our thoughts, that we could see how to change things. When it occurred to us, that our worship of separation, had obscured the idea that we are all equally creative beings, we knew all that we had to do was to quit contributing to the craziness. We are all equally powerful beings. In our separateness, we did not realize, who we were. It was only after we contemplated the idea, that all our minds were connected, that we saw what was happening. Then we realized that, everything we thought, affected everyone. All our thoughts and feelings went into the pool of creative energy. Fortunately for us, love is more powerful than the dark energies.
Now we know, we can help create the world we want by focusing our minds on loving thoughts. We can free our minds from the controllers, by refusing to think, the way in which they are attempting to program us. We cannot be controlled if we refuse fear thoughts. If we refuse to be afraid of other nations, religions, races etc., war is impossible. If we refuse to see anybody as less deserving, poverty is impossible. All inequality and conflict, is based on some kind of judgement. We can resist the invitation to judge.
As each, one of us, pulls our mind out of the collective negativity; the collective positivity grows. Those who would control us, find their power diminishing. They may control the money and the media, but without our minds, they have nothing.
Those who choose love over fear are coming together. It is occurring to us that paradise has always been under our feet. Paradise has been, covered over, by an illusion created by fear. Thank God we are not in kindergarten any longer.
Love and Peace, Gregg
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