It was brilliantly Sunny an hour ago
and now it has clouded over. There is a storm coming. At least, that
is the forecast. We could get a foot of snow on Friday. I just looked
at the forecast and the greater depth will be a little to our North,
we may get 2 to 4 inches. That is enough. The chickens won't like it.
I don't have hay for my sheep yet, either. Hopefully, we will get
some this weekend.
I am not as peaceful as I would like to
be; and I don't see as much peace in the World. Well then, that is
perception. When we don't experience peace inside, we are not likely
to see it outside. Sometimes we can keep our equanimity through
illness [ours and others], peoples tantrums, political upheavals etc,
and, other times, we are vulnerable to almost any disturbance. I don't
know how much commonality there is. I know that some people's anxiety
can slash me like a knife and others have no effect on me. Sometimes,
even those I am most vulnerable to, will not affect my peace. How can
I maintain equanimity through all my life experiences?
One of the things, many of us have
difficulty with, is accepting helplessness. When the outside seems
out of control, we tend to freak out, rather than accept, we cannot
do something that we think we should. We know that 'right' action
comes from peace. Solutions come when we give up the internal
struggle and let things happen. What is that feeling of helplessness?
Is it an attempt to control our environment? I think each of us needs
to sink into the feeling, when we have it, and learn its origins.
People experience, this sense of
helplessness, in different situations. Some people have it about
tasks. Some people have it about others feelings, that they would
like to, or feel they should control.
The feeling of helplessness does not
have to be a bad thing. Or I should say, helplessness isn't a bad
thing. I don't know, that the feeling, is ever beneficial. Knowing
your helpless is okay. It is giving the problem to a loving universe.
A solution will come.
For me, the solution, is knowing I
cannot control anything outside myself. I can control my thoughts. I
am responsible for the indulgence of my feelings. When I have a
feeling that disturbs my peace, I can examine where it comes from,
rather than just go with it and create disturbance around me. It
boils down to, I am responsible for my being, if I am taking
responsibility for my being, the outside will take care of itself.
I can reach out to someone else, in
distress, and be loving and compassionate, only when I am at peace.
So often, in our relationships, we take on each other's anxiety, and
we trigger off each other, in ways that are not particularly helpful.
Each individual needs to see how this works for them. For me it seems
clear, that I need to accept, I cannot control anything outside
myself and I need to love myself.
When we love ourselves sufficiently, we
won't take anything, from the outside, as a negative comment on us.
We will know, that other's judgements and reactions, to us, are
theirs and not ours. Then we can react with love and compassion and
perhaps be helpful.
When we end the wars in ourselves, we
will see peace around us.
The Sun is shining brilliantly again.
Peace resides in my being. Thank you for listening.
Love and Peace, Gregg
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