STILL CRAZY AFTER ALL THESE YEARS

I was going to name this blog responsibility, but Paul Simon's song kept going through my head.

Responsibility is not obligation, duty, guilt any kind of IOU. Responsibility is knowing we are responsible for our thoughts and feelings. And being so.

I have been in a funk lately, and pretending I didn't know, what was causing it. Due to our late Spring[?], I haven't finished things that I normally would have completed by the middle of May. My amaryllis are still in their Winter pots, the gladiolas are still hanging in a burlap bag in the basement, the chickens are sweltering in their coop because, I haven't got the mechanisms up, to hoist the windows, we put in last Fall and the recent storms brought down branches all over the yard. I can't mow until they are cleaned up. I did get the dead tree cut up, that fell on our garden fence.

Yes, I have been in a funk and I knew I felt overwhelmed. Surely, I was much too spiritually evolved and certainly too cool to let, a long string of unmet tasks, actually depress me. Sure Gregg, your somehow different from everybody else on the planet; just way, way too cool to be bothered by that. Ya, right. It is funny how we can fool ourselves, especially when the truth is not that difficult to face. The chickens haven't suffered a bit. The amaryllis are fine in their pots and the gladiolas may not bloom until frost; that isn't the end of the world.

The ego is tricky. I didn't realize that was the problem. The negativity came in the form of feelings; there was little thought involved. The feelings made me cranky and hypercritical. One of the things we humans like to do, when  we are feeling bad about ourselves, we zero in on those closest to us.

But we are responsible for our happiness and everything else about us. If we sit with negative feelings and act as if there is nothing we can do about it, we are not being responsible. The good news is that we are responsible; we can change things. The bad news is we are responsible; that is how it feels sometime. But it is never bad news. Knowing you are in charge, means you have the key. We don't have to accept any negativity from any source [ultimately the source is always ourselves].

We need to let go of all expectations of ourselves. Everything is changing so fast, that, any expectations, we have of ourselves, may be obsolete, as well as unrealistic.

Being responsible, is being responsible for the Love you are. It certainly isn't doing things your little self thinks are important. With love we can elevate our little selves to a grander vision. We can see the love we are, and the love in our neighbors. We know we live in paradise. Why cheat ourselves. "Are we still crazy after all these years?"

Love and Peace,  Gregg