Yesterday Jamie said, "The Amaryllis". Instantly, I realized she was commenting on the fact that I had forgotten to pot them. For those who are not familiar with the plant; many people pot the bulbs around Thanksgiving, so they bloom at Christmas time. I usually pot mine after the new year, so they will bloom in the dreary part of February. After it warms up in Spring I take them out of the pots and plant them in the garden until fall, when I dig them and put them in the basement. Many people leave them in the pots and place the whole pot in the soil for the Summer.
I don't know how I forgot them. No wonder February was dreary! They add a lot with their red, white, pink and salmon colored blooms. I have raised them for twenty five years and some of my bulbs most be that old. I will get them potted today or tomorrow and they will flower later this month.
Is it time to clean up your act? Are you happy most of the time? Do you love yourself? Are you nice to yourself? The incoming light on the planet is intense. We are surrounded by unconditional love. Now is the time to see what is keeping you from experiencing the loving being you are.
Do you know when you are being a jerk? Ask your wife or husband they know. Husbands and wives are experts on each other. Not that they are always right; in fact they are frequently wrong, because they are observing and reacting through their own ego. However, they are right that something needs correcting in your consciousness. It will behoove you to listen carefully; connect the dots, even if they are not completely accurate, what they observe is important information for you. Generally our problems boil down to being afraid of love. We are uncomfortable in a situation where we feel love coming at us, we are out of control in the presence of unconditional love. If you don't love yourself, you won't believe anybody can really love you, and you diminish them in your mind if they do. You then, in some way, will treat them with disrespect.
I speak about this with first hand knowledge, as this is one of the areas in which I am learning. I am a slow learner. I pick up things swiftly at an intellectual level, but at an emotional level I lag behind. When I was a therapist, I was amazed at how some people changed who were in deep denial about something once they 'saw'. I have had clients who were not aware of their real feelings about a parent or sex or whatever. When they were helped to see, it was like bursting a boil, they started to change and got better. It was great to see.
Then there are people like me. We don't deny, at least at a surface level. When I first read Sigmund Freud's "Introduction to Psychoanalysis" it made perfect sense to me. I had no resistance to the concepts. Intellectual learning about myself was no problem, the assortment of unsavory things people deny about themselves, I had no problem accepting at an intellectual level. However, accepting those things did not make me feel better about myself. Learning for me was like wearing away a stone. Looking back I see that I have come a long way. There have been a few 'aha' moments but mostly it has been a slow process.
Whichever type of learner you are, it is time now to get the act together. There is no better time. Love surrounds you. Help is available. Your most intimate relations are a good barometer. Listen to your husband, wife and children. If you detect they do not feel respected by you; look into yourself. You are probably not respecting yourself and are afraid of love.
Paradise is knowing you are unconditionally loved. You can begin to create it around you.
Love and Peace, Gregg
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