THE VICTIM CARD

Hey! I had a great idea, writing about how the increasing intensity of the love around us can have a paradoxical affect because our ego's feel threatened. Friday, I said I would be prepared to write about it. I am not. I will be, I can use myself as an example.

I was playing a little three card solitaire. I got a hold of the Victim Card. I held on to it a little too long. Oh, I have a long string of excuses. I didn't have a good week etc. But the Victim Card, what a painful one that is. It might be okay to feel sorry for yourself for a minute or two. I don't know it is not my trip.

We need to take care of ourselves tenderly. We need to acknowledge when things are painful and it is good to weep a few tears for yourself. However, when I was feeling sorry for myself I was not loving myself, I was cutting off the love that was available.

If I am the victim then how am I going to help myself? It is an angry powerless position. There is nothing much worse than feeling angry and powerless, it is the ingredients for rage.

I was standing up to my neck in the swamp of human mis-function and casting my eyes heavenward trying to meditate. I thought I could find that quiet place inside filled with unconditional love.

Fortunately, I can never emerge myself completely into one of these dark places. I didn't quite hear the answer but I felt the Universe's answer in every bone in my body, “Why don't you crawl out of the swamp you old fool!”

Once I started my journey out of the swamp the voice softened and told me to forgive myself and love myself. I begin to feel lighter and feel that Universal Love again. I was told not to remind myself of my errors and watch what strange pools you explore. You have guides.

I imagine I will expand on this experience later.

It is so important that we don't cut off our own love for ourselves. There is no substitute certainly not self pity.

I don't know why I needed to have this lesson. I very rarely feel sorry for myself. Ahh................ perhaps it is because I haven't been as compassionate as I could be to others who have held the Victim Card too long. I have learned! I have learned!

Love yourself my friends. Treat yourself tenderly and with kindness.

I have visited that swamp for you. You don't need to go there. I like to feel one should be able to do it for everybody. We are One. However, while we are separated by these bodies, we will all need to have our individual lessons. Just keep in mind that whenever we get into one of these bad spots, it is just a lesson we chose for our learning. We learn and we see the light again.

Let us keep our eyes on the light and fill every moment with love.

Love and Peace, Gregg