STUPIDITY

It is gloomy outside. I am kind of gloomy, even miserable. I will get over it. Writing about it will help. As I reported in my Wednesday blog I felt tired due to the events on Tuesday. I felt good too, our trip was lovely and I enjoyed the meeting with the doctor.

On Wednesday evening it kept crossing my mind, “I should celebrate.” About 9:30 I thought, “Okay I will have a toast to the universe.” I did, I toasted the universe more than once between 9:30 and 11:30. At 11:30 PM I generally go to my study and consult my computer to catch up on the events of the day and read some of my favorite things.

On my way to the study I stopped at the bathroom which is adjacent to the laundry room and my study. For some unknown reason I lost my balance and fell through the door of the bathroom into the laundry room. I managed to crawl through the laundry room into my study. The three rooms are hooked together. I never hurt myself falling and I didn't think I did this time. It must have taken me at least an hour to get up because I didn't get to bed until 2:AM and I doubt if I spent more than an hour on the computer if that.

Upon arising Thursday morning I discovered I had a knot of pain on my left hip like a deep bruise. Then my left shoulder was weak and painful. I must have fallen hard on my left side.

I had trouble getting out of my chair during my recovery so I put an extra pillow on the seat to raise it up. It worked fine. I had just taken it out on Monday. Yes! I had a lot to celebrate; a clean report from the doctor and I could go back to getting in and out of my chair as always. Hey! I was returning to normal. Now with the pain in my hip and my sore shoulder I am having trouble getting in and out of my chair again. I am going to tough it out though. I will heal. I won't let one little indiscretion keep me from going forward.

To top it off I didn't feel good yesterday, a hangover perhaps. I missed several opportunities to be loving in the moment and was not very pleasant to Jamie. Yes, I was in jerks-ville much of the day. I am a better person today but the physical results of my fall are no better.

Then to top off an interesting eventful day I was trying to program my garage door to open with a combination from the outside, I didn't succeed. This Morning I noticed I did succeed in deprogramming the control to open and close the door from inside the car. Now what? I wonder what kind of astrological influence I am experiencing or is this just life's stupidities?

I hope I am not raining on anybody's parade. Hey! It is worth a chuckle. That is all we can do and then forge ahead. We know paradise is somewhere.

Wouldn't it be nice if we went forward every day, perhaps just a little, to spiritual and psychological enlightenment without these backward lurches? Yet I know I will look back on recent events and see the learning. They might even be important turning points. In any case I recommit myself to being love every moment.

I know I am one with a Loving Universe and everything is indeed okay. Maybe now that I have written this I should erase it and write a blog only about the marvels I have experienced in the last couple days. I could. I did experience marvels. Nah, this writing reflects the tone of yesterday. Just one of those little backlashes in our forward progress.

Happy Friday! Celebrate- but not like I did.

Love and Peace, Gregg