GETTING SETTLED

Jamie has a doctors appointment at 7AM tomorrow. We took a dry run to the clinic this Morning. It turned out to be easy to find and less than ten minutes from home. We are finally getting our medical stuff transferred from Mora to Sauk Rapids. I am still connected with First Light in Mora. Hopefully not much after Friday. It is a long drive about fifty miles.

When you live for 43 years in one place, you know where everything is. You rarely look at a map. Now we don't know the way to anywhere. Well we found the grocery store, the hardware store and of course the liquor store, but after nearly three months living here we still don't know our way around.

When we moved in we needed to get a telephone that fit with our new system. We picked one up. The central unit was much smaller and unimpressive than our old one. I figured it had answering capability but it would need to be set up as our old one did. I didn't want to bother with it at the time. I noticed it had a number flashing at the base first a 1, then a 2 finally a 5. Well I figured it had something to do do with the answering capability but since I never set it up I didn't think it was recording messages. I studied it this Morning and figured out where to push to get messages. Sure enough it was set up in the factory and it had five messages. One was a robocall, one was from an old friend, one I couldn't decipher [I think it was from the Mora clinic] the other two were from businesses. This modern technology goes faster than I do.

For the most part I have regained my balance and can again see the love of the Universe. I got over my tantrum Monday. I must have been over it before I started writing Monday's blog. I will be glad to have Friday over with regardless of the results of the scan. I really don't spend time worrying about it. Most of the time I am peaceful and generally happy but it is there in my consciousness quietly nagging.

This experience must be teaching me something besides having better control of my fear thoughts. There seems to be so much more involved; life, death, suffering, the meaning of life, the purpose of these struggles, how much is for me, how much is for those impacted by me. How can I love it all?

Well I will learn. I will experience and I will report it here in my blog.

Love and Peace, Gregg