It
is an absolutely gorgeous Morning on Laughing Water Farm!
Fortunately, yesterday's storm did no damage here. We got an inch of
rain which was welcome. It is 75 F and the Sun is bright, perfect.
The peonies are about to burst into bloom. They were a little
battered by the wind, but they will be okay. In general, the flower
gardens are in fine shape.
The
gardens need weeding and I need to get out the weed whip and cut down
the grass that has grown over the rocks on the borders. It will get
done.
We
are not having a vegetable garden this year. Jamie tried, but her
shoulder gave her too much trouble. She dis-located it, in a fall,
last year and it hasn't healed sufficiently yet. Then there is the
age related stuff. When I am sitting here at the computer I have no
sense of age; I feel I could do anything. But when I try to get my
body to do things, it is a different story.
In
the future I will write about the difference in accepting death and
accepting mortality. Accepting death is simply getting over the fear
of it. Accepting you are mortal, includes accepting what happens to
the body as we age. I am not afraid of death and I don't mind the
idea of being old. However, when being old means accepting body
deterioration, we're talking a different kettle of fish. That is a
discussion for the future.
I
don't know what I want to discuss today. Sometimes I feel I am caught
in Limbo. You know Limbo, in Roman Catholic theology the place where
you go between Heaven and Hell. Your not bad enough to go to Hell,
but you are not ready for Heaven. {or is that purgatory- one of them
you are not worthy yet, and the other, you are not quite qualified}
It may all be nonsense, but sometimes I feel that way in my
spiritual/psychological evolution.
I
have the intent to be loving at all times. I have the intent to keep
my mind free of negativity. I have the intent to be in the 'now'
without thought of the past or the future. For moments it is my
experience. But then.........................
In
my Our Mind series, as in all my writings, I am attempting to teach
myself. I am a persistent seeker of sanity. I am pretty sure what is
insane [fear and lack of love] and I am pretty sure what is sane
[love, peace and joy].
Yet
in our intent to be in one place and not the other, we struggle, we
bounce between heaven and hell way to frequently. We learn from our
teachers that we cannot struggle. We must accept. Just surrender to
the love around us. It sounds so easy. And it is, at the moment I
am writing this, I can feel I am basking in Unconditional Love. It is
great. Everything is perfect. But I can get up from this chair and
walk in the other room, and somebody can say something, which will
cause my mind to cloud up or worse.
All
our paths are different but I suspect most of us do a lot of forward
motion and then backslide, perhaps minute by minute. I am not
pessimistic I know I will make it and I know all of you will too. A
mind filled with peace is our goal and our reality.
Perhaps
we need to accept our path is like that, we find ourselves in heaven,
then later, we are dangling over the pits. May our stays in heaven be
longer. Will I be writing anymore when I realize my intent to always
be peaceful?
Anyway,
HAPPY MONDAY!
We
can always choose love.
Love
and Peace, Gregg
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