A RAINY DAY

I lost my blog and need to start over. I used to do this and it was a mystery and usually disturbing. Now I use a program that makes it almost impossible. With a modicum of idiocy I figured out how do do it.

No big deal. It is a rainy day and I don't have anything else I would rather do. My procrastination period is over for now. I did the last two big things that were bugging me. The rainy day gives me a vacation from thinking about the many other things that could be done. I planted the amaryllis yesterday and got oyster shell set up for my chickens. We were getting a lot of eggs with fragile shells; oyster shell, which is rich in calcium, usually cures the problem. Egg laying mash has calcium added, but I can't buy it, except from big-ag companies. I don't trust what is in their feed. I buy from a local mill. They don't make egg mash, but they do make up a fifteen percent protein feed that works. It is also fed to pigs. Our old biddies are doing well. We got a dozen eggs yesterday. We have about twenty hens.

Our chickens have the whole world to roam around in. They don't need to be fed at all in the Summer. For years we didn't, and I think they were healthier foraging for themselves. However, they were a little more pesky in the gardens. I don't remember what our egg production was like then. That was when we were living off the land and money was a very short item. I am into indulging them now.

I don't feel like I have anything to say. At least, not anything I haven't said many times before. What is happening, as reflected by the media, is dehumanizing. I can't believe the world can be that crazy. This health care fiasco is disheartening. How can people think we shouldn't take care of each other?

I always thought health care was a right, just like education. I thought we would have come to our senses, years ago, with the rest of the world. It is amazing that people can put an ideology ahead of meeting peoples basic needs. The pretense that money is a problem would be funny if it wasn't so ridiculous. We can print out trillions to save the banks and there is an unending supply of money to supply arms to kill off people in strange lands, but we can't afford to take care of own people when they're sick!?

And health care is just one example of our absurdity. I know we are waking up and I know that people are not as crazy as the media would have us believe. I can only look around in my own little bubble of what we think of as reality. Some of the folks I know are, interestingly weird; but we are not crazy.

It is hard to escape the vibrations from the craziness. I find myself sinking into a meditative state frequently. I can find a deep sense of peace by closing my eyes and emptying my mind. At my age, this is sometimes nap time; I can use several short naps a day.

As usual, we can only work on ourselves. As we are waiting for the darkness to lift, we can remove all traces of darkness from ourselves. I know we have been doing that right along. It is helpful to make a point of sitting down everyday and looking over our consciousness. We need to forgive ourselves and everyone else. We need to check ourselves out; are we judging anybody, are we harboring any resentments, are we wishing everyone well, are we judging ourselves?

This exercise is not meant to be self-critical. Just observe and let go. We need to accept and love ourselves just the way we are. Criticizing ourselves, when we fall back into judgement of self or others, merely creates more judgement. Just see what is, if we don't like the thought or feeling, we can let it go without further comment.

The best exercise is just focusing on love and the negatives will float away, on their own, if it is our intent. We can close our eyes and imagine ourselves marinating in unconditional love. With every breath the oxygen, we take in binds with unconditional love, and is carried in our blood stream to every cell in our body. Our bodies radiate love, our minds can only know love. When we love ourselves we love everybody. When we are doing this exercise, we can begin to realize, we are everybody and everybody is us.

Yes, paradise has to begin with each of us. It is happening.

Love and Peace, Gregg