SNOW

I was going to write about what one should do when they are having a bad day. But the world is too beautiful and I am having a wonderful day.

It snowed last night. Our forecast was for less than an inch. The storm was supposed to go South of us. The Twin Cities and South were suppose to get the brunt. However, the storm had a mind of its own and we received about five inches.

It is incredibly beautiful. I took several pictures. They turned out nice but not as beautiful as the eye perceives. If it doesn't melt soon I am going to have to haul out some hay for my sheep and that is fine, its time.

There is an air compressor, for the nail gun, operating about six feet away. There is sawing and hammering going on. They are putting up the ceiling on the addition. If the noise gets too much I might have to shorten this blog. Though, I don't know what shorten it would mean as I have no idea what  am going to say.

Yesterday I was having a badish day. It wasn't horrible. I wasn't real depressed or anything. I just wasn't very happy. I could look around me and could see that everything was great. There was nothing to create misery. So what was the problem? I was attacking myself. It was subtle. It was a feeling of unworthiness or inadequacy. There were few identifiable thoughts that I could look at. The feelings came to me in waves of cruddiness. It created doubts in my mind about my worthiness.

Eventually, I had enough of it. If Source loves me unconditionally and accepts me as I am; who am I to decide differently? What am I doing wading around in a sewer, when I can be enjoying the Love of the Universe? With a little discipline I was able to bring my mind to the moment and escape the harassment.

What happens to us, anyway, when we are having a bad day? We are listening to our ego. When we first commit ourselves to evolve and start paying attention to our thoughts, it is clear what is making us unhappy. We can identify the thought that is doing the damage and look at it, as much as we need to, and dismiss it. This might involve forgiveness of ourselves or others.

But the ego is tricky. It doesn't give up. It wants to be in control. When you are listening to Spirit and not it, it is terrified of losing control. When we master our minds, to the extent that we dismiss the obvious negative thoughts, it needs to try controlling us in more subtle ways. The ego attempts to co-opt our feelings and create a negative fog so we cannot see the brilliant light that is always around us.

A strong conviction of our worthiness helps in preventing these episodes and helps us realize the ridiculousness of self-judgement. It, also, helps to know that Love always wins out over Ego. Love surpasses everything.

It is an error to see the ego as an enemy {right- it acts that way} but it is our child. We created it as an aid in our separation. Because of the inculcation of fear we began listening to our ego as if it was our savior. The ego, having no life except what we gave it, became a tyrant. Now that we realize we can follow Spirit and not the urging of the ego, the ego feels betrayed. It knows it has only the life we give it. The ego is afraid of the very fear it fostered, it is afraid to die.

We can accept the ego is part of us. We can be reassured that it can aid us, in our separate bodies, to experience the world we create; but it need not rule. We can beam love on our egos as we love everything else. As we love ourselves more and more, all of ourselves, {our egos included} the negative power of our egos will evaporate. The ego cannot stand up against love. To reiterate, if Source loves us, who are we to argue. We will still have struggles and we can have compassion for ourselves, as we have for any loved one, who struggles.

So love yourselves, you marvelous human beings; you perfect beings of light and have a wonderful day.

Love and Peace,  Gregg