GETTING IT TOGETHER

It was a remarkably beautiful day yesterday; today it is back to the Spring drears. That is okay, we can feel Spring getting ready to express itself; or should I say herself; isn't Spring feminine, being the renewal of Life?

Last year, at this time, we had crocuses blooming! The frost is still in the ground, it will be a few more days this year. I hope it will warm up soon enough so I can get the hoses working; hauling water gets to be a chore. The sheep are drinking about twice is much now.

I have nothing profound to say about the craziness in the world; it will pass. In the meantime, I practice getting my own act together. We are all experts on our own faults. The paradox is we don't rid ourselves of them by focusing on them. Just like, with seeing another's faults, we must look beyond them, and see the loving being beneath them. The further paradox is, that we can't successfully do it with others, if we can't do it with ourselves. Perhaps, that is the beginning of understanding Oneness.

In the last blog I indicated that, the New Moon's effect on me, might be history. I was wrong. I had a bit of negative behavior. We need to own up to our ridiculousness, and at he same time, forgive ourselves and know we are loving beings of light. We get into trouble, when we attack ourselves, for our faults. We will often out-picture the discomfort and attack the person next to us [often the closest person to us]. This can happen so fast that we don't even realize we were judging ourselves. We always attack ourselves first, before we attack another. The first step can be hidden from us, however, with a modicum of contemplation, we can generally see how it works. We feel bad, because of some some faultfinding, and then behave like a jerk to another. We can take it a step further and feel bad about our jerkiness, deny it, and attack the person further.

Forgiveness, of course, is the key. We need to forgive ourselves, as we would another, ahhh- see how it works- sounds familiar doesn't it. Forgiveness needs to cover all of us.

From the time we were born, we were carefully taught to judge ourselves. It doesn't matter how perfect, our parents may have been, [though that certainly helps] our whole world is a marinade of judgement. Every institution uses judgement to control. Self judgement becomes automatic. We try to fulfill others expectations of us. Many of us, learn, to care more about societies judgements of us, than our own.

THEN WE WANT TO GROW UP. How do we reverse years of programming? To some extent we will have some jerkiness as long as we judge ourselves. And we will continue to struggle with our judgements of others, as long as we judge ourselves. Everybody is going to do this a little different. Some folks can rid themselves of a whole load of shit through meditation. Other's need to deal with it more piece mill, they need to see where their self-judgements came from, and forgive all involved. Most of us will have a more scatter-gun approach. We will recognize that, we must be okay, at some level, and do the best we can. Life comes to us. When we recognize, we create our experience, we learn to see, what we created by our own negativity.

I start with the idea that I am love, and so is everybody else. Anything, that is not love, is the illusion we buy into. Yes, I too, live in the illusion. But, I recognize, when I am not happy, I am being crazy, and when I am making someone else unhappy, I am compounding it. I own up to my nuttiness as best as I can and practice forgiveness. It is hard to forgive yourself, when you have contributed, to the discomfort of the person next to you, and they are reminding you. Ahhh.... see Oneness. Forgiveness needs to be a blanket of love.

I like to use affirmations, that I am a loving being living in a world, created by love. I, also, use thankfulness; I express my thankfulness to a loving universe several times a day.

I think everyone needs to find the affirmations that fit for them, so I hesitate to share mine. I will think about it [wrong word] I won't think, I will just let the idea soak and if it feels right, I will share my daily affirmations on Friday.

Love and Peace, Gregg