It has been a busy Morning. Besides my regular chores, I had to take my truck up to the garage, because the clutch wouldn't disengage. I have a 1996 ford Ranger that I have owned for 16 years. It is a great vehicle and it has hauled a lot of feed and hay. It is also my main transportation when I want to go to town to get the paper or do a little shopping. It has been disabled for about a month- I miss it.
Last night I was anticipating getting the truck up to the garage. I cannot shift when the engine is running. So I knew I would have to figure out how to start out in as high a gear as possible and hope I didn't need to stop. It is a distance of ten miles and four stop signs. On top of that it was forecast to get down to -17F and I was concerned about the pipe to the kitchen sink freezing again.
Now I have been teaching and lecturing folks about how to deal with fear thoughts for forty years. I should be an expert on controlling my own mind, right? Well last night, I had a toasty fire going in the wood stove, every thing appeared peaceful, even serene. So, what am I doing? I am having waves of anxiety about freezing pipes and dealing with the truck in these inclement conditions. I would calm myself down but the negative thought would come back with a vengeance. I managed to get above it and it didn't hurt my whole evening; but gee, who wants to do that?
It is humbling. We are all part of the human race. We all have certain triggers that can cause an upheaval in our consciousness. It is strange being caught up in negativity when you know better. I know how it works. I know how to get out of it. Why do we still allow ourselves to get trapped? What were the triggers that were causing me a problem? Was it fear that I wouldn't be able to cope with a worse case scenario? Perhaps; although in my better moments I know I can cope with anything. A pipe in the crawl space breaking and spewing water would be a considerable challenge. That is not likely however, by history, but still?
TRUST! Trust that we are far more than our limited perception allows, is a huge thing. Think of how important trust is, in creating our future. It can't help but shape expectations that affect everything.
By the time the evening was over and I went to bed, I discovered trust, and found peace. I had a great night's sleep.
Yes, this Morning the pipe was frozen, but it took only a few minutes to thaw with a hair dryer. My chores were completed smoothly. I was able to get my truck moving in second gear, so I was able to travel the ten miles at thirty miles an hour. There were no cars coming at the four stop signs, so I was able to roll on through without stopping. All and all, an easy and uneventful trip, and a very pleasant Morning.
We have to realize that no matter what happens; it is okay. Really okay! We can't see everything while we are in these bodies. That is okay. We all will have a funk from time to time. It is learning. And that is OKAY.
I had an interesting coincidence yesterday. The Morning paper had an article about a doctor who taught people that happiness had a direct connection to physical health. He described various strategies to express happiness, whether one was feeling it or not. The hypothesis being, that if we act happy, even when we may not be, we will teach ourselves to be happy. He had experience as both a physician and an actor. He knew how to look happy.
Last night, before I went to bed, I read a blog called HEAVEN LETTERS that explored the same subject. It is an issue I come across again and again. I have written about it. Happiness is. It occurs when we are peaceful. Peace and happiness are always available. It is up to us.
Love and Peace, Gregg
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