REACTIONS

I, no longer, look at the past and wish I could have been different. I know, everything fits into the perfection of our evolution. Everything has its way of moving us forward. If I was one to want things different, I would wish for different or no reactions to people or events.

How many times have we reacted to what someone said, or did, and made our life miserable or hurt someone's feelings? How many times have we experienced a moment, an evening, an event ruined because of our's/other's reactions?

Most of the time we realize the reaction was uncalled for. Yet, we might be puzzled. Why did we react so strongly? The reaction can be an outburst, spraying negativity on everything and everybody or it can be internal, a gripping of our own soul with negativity. In either case, it always affects everyone.

What is that all about? We are going along just fine and something is said that puts us in hell. Why?

We have all developed layers, around, what we think is a fragile core. We will discover it is not fragile at all. At our core we are unconditionally loving beings. We are incapable of being hurt. However, some time after birth we identified with our fragile bodies, and everything in our culture led us to believe we needed to protect ourselves from the outside. We were taught, that we were separate entities, vulnerable to harm. We learned that being vulnerable was dangerous. We are just beginning to learn that vulnerability is our strength.

We, all, had different experiences and we, all, developed different types of layers for protection. These layers have one thing in common; when poked they have an immediate and automatic response.

What can we do about it? We need to accept, we are responsible for our reactions. However, responsibility is not guilt. Responsibility is not blame or fault finding. Awareness is the name of the game we are in. Awareness is the key to our evolution. We need to become aware that we have these layers. Some of us need to look at our lives and understand, how and why, we developed these defenses; others, of us, can learn to become more exposed and let down our guard without much exploration. In either case, acceptance of who we are, right now and the willingness to look and see, what is happening is crucial. Our reactions are automatic. We can't stop a reaction once it is triggered. We can, however, look to see what was causing it and realize we do not need that defense.

Self examination is never, never self-blame. We must be sweet and kind to ourselves. We must be abundantly forgiving. We built up these layers in the first place because we were afraid we were not lovable. Attacking ourselves just proves it. Discovering we are lovable is a key part of awareness. We are infinitely lovable.

Many of us, on looking back at our lives, have realized that our defenses have diminished. If we have been pursuing a path of embracing love, we may see we have made remarkable progress. Others, may have chosen life partners to hurry their evolution, their respective layers may be antagonistic. If we find ourselves in relationships where we are often 'poked' it may be an opportunity, we created, to grow.

We are all on different paths and we are all growing. All of us. Love is always the only solution. When we love ourselves sufficiently, we will let our defensive layers melt in the light, of the love, that surrounds us. It is always there. We will discover we are not vulnerable. We are great beings of light and love.

Love and Peace,  Gregg